I remember a good friend told me:
'I was content to be alone forever
until I met her'.
What a revelation! It got me thinking.
The words 'alone' and 'forever' put together can be daunting. But his
attitude was nonchalant, which led me to think of it in a nonchalant
way. I had never considered loneliness to be a positive. If
everything has a positive and a negative aspect, which is something I
believe, then loneliness should be no different.
The problem was I spent too much time
letting my lack of companionship define me where the surplus of
myself should provide definition. To some I will always be a pathetic
or hopeless person because I lack the other half to my supposed
whole. But I counter that with my own assertion that if I needed to
be whole as society deems fit, I would find myself a woman for my
usual neurosis of doing what is 'O.K' in the eyes of others. The fact
that my laziness overwhelms that tells me that I too am content to be
alone forever. And that is one of the few aspects of myself I am ok
with.
